Self Examination

An evaluation of incompetence is used to support an industry dependent upon it, not the person being evaluated. An evaluator's results are determined by the examiner's means, motives and methods, and the outcome predicts nothing about what may develop. It might be better to use a system that has not been tested and failed, than to rely on one that has. Our faith in a given practice may be all that's needed to recover from an injury.

When we act out of fear to determine if there's a threat in our environment, it's because we have evidence of that threat to begin with. And we were scared by the result of these investigations when we're young, so the impact was severe. Our enquiry was intended to evaluate the magnitude of the threats we lived with and to learn to gain some control over them, whether fancied or real, so it was not wrong to seek protection, safety or comfort when we had trouble doing so, though the strategies we were taught did not always work to our advantage.

Evaluation Continued

Circa 1968 (See also: Transpositions (Second column, The Evaluating Mind)

For example: The tactile evaluation of the glans of a circumcised person does not tell us anything about the capacity of an individual to respond without circumcision, but determining a normal, or hyperactive response may help to alleviate the anxiety that surrounds the discovery of scar tissue and the resulting loss of sensitivity. And, if Eve was condemned by her evaluation of that which may determine what will be, and what will not be by some confusion of the term ‘tree, or limb’, then removal of that point of contact may serve as adequate way to forgive the transgression that may have corrupted the tree in order to determine the magnitude of the threat. Please see: Haptics in Biotechnology.

Physical problems need to be treated by physical means, and if the trauma is a learned response to what might be termed conditioning, ideally we would approach the systems that rely upon it in order to change standard practice, or consent to it. A therapeutic change in our lives results in rewritten genes. Muscle memory returns to normal patterned responses and functions, as do autonomic and/or sympathetic systems, such as the heart rate, and breathing patterns, but if conditioning is a sanctioned act - supported by government, religion and corporations bent upon profits rather than our own health and happiness, we can seek alternatives. Please see: Bodywork.

Inventory

By writing about problems common to us all, like Anger, we can get to the source of our discontent, and find out what's really bothering us. You can use the following worksheets as guides:

Resentment Inventory
Resentment Inventory II

The same principles apply to Fear and Conduct. You can use these worksheets to solve these problems:

Fear Inventory
Fear Inventory II

Conduct Inventory
Conduct Inventory II

The pioneers of this program realized the cause of disease was inflammation, or the burning up sensation over 75 years ago, and reducing, or eliminating inflammation is precisely the purpose of these worksheets. By writing out what we're upset about and by disciplined practice of prayer and meditation we can overcome our own anger and frustration for next to nothing.

Instructions on how to do this is available here: Step Primer. Sometimes it's our only option, and even if we need to resort to professional support someday, we'll be much better prepared to do so.

There are suggested prayers along with the suggested questions to help you find your own truth.

Though the step program is designed for addictions, many of us have come to believe that managing anger may be a life saving strategy. Whenever life isn't fair (and it frequently is not!), and we have no choice but to live with injustice, there is no better way to deal with it. What we've begun to realize is that reporting the crimes may actually make things worse as you can see here in this example.

Keep a Log

It was suggested that I keep a timeline, or log so that upon reflection, I might learn to develop adaptations that we're currently unfamiliar with to improve on what we've been told to do. You'll find more suggestions reprinted here:
Guidance and Support.

Important

The value of this exercise is to show how to avoid becoming a victim of circumstances. If you review your log carefully, you will find examples that are more useful than others. It’s dangerous to publish a log, so choose what to publish carefully.

In the following example, I illustrate how toning down an incident log might include using ambiguity to take the heat of one incident or another, but by doing so, doubt about who, or what has caused a continuing problem may lead to sloppy corrections.

Prior History

1962-1964: The sex conduct of my parents ends their marriage (my mother asked me to tone down my use of language when covering this material, so I used ambiguity to refer to two different incidents by simply saying, I got lost following a cat. (The adultery took place after I got lost following a calico cat, but by referring to one, I might also be construed as referring to the cat my mother was seeing as well).

1979: When I brought up memories of the high pressure environment we grew up in with my mother, she referred to my recollection as 'gray matter'.

1982-2012: I take my concerns about my family of origin and our shame based alcoholic family to therapy and report to Doctors and therapists who kept track of what I've reported that has happened while living and working in the Twin City Metro Area as children during the 1960's and 70's.

Incidents

• February 2014: The sound of intentional noise, diesels, low frequency vibrations and switching in the furnace room become so difficult to tolerate it's difficult to work or sleep in my apartment at all.
• December 2013 - Present: Smoke from the use of drugs in an apartment upstairs vents into my bathroom. I called the police, notified the landlord, and talked to the neighbors, but the people involved were not on the lease, and the violations continued.

While it may seem hard to believe, the intentional noise and disruptions to my living space seem to have resulted from the publication of these events because they started taking place shortly after I began the activity.